"The Devil whispers 'You are not ready for the storms.' The warrior replies, 'I am the storm' "
"One must commit acts of the highest treason only when dressed in the most resplendent."
"Once all struggles are grasped, miracles are possible." - Mao Zedong
"I don't always fly fish, but when I do, I release epic tales of the one that got away."
I know we cut down the sapling that was growing in my front yard and planted a Green Giant Arbor Vitae, but I swear, I really am more of a tree guy than people think. And no, I am not talking about plants here. I'm talking about family trees. One tree I have done or inadvertently done alot is yeah, I just said it and you probably guessed it, the Lotts.
I like the Lotts because they are rich but they don't let money go to their head. They are gritty people and fight very hard for the most important values in our society. The Lotts aren't caught up in the rampant materialism of our day. They don't covet power and they don't let the poor suffer. The Lotts are my kind of American family and this country would be much better if all people were more like them. I owe a huge debt of gratitude to the Lotts for all they have done to right it these last couple years.
With the recent heat waves in Phoenix though, the Lotts have been hit hard. I recently decided I am not going to be doing the Lotts again for a very, very, very long time. They have done enough, let's give them a rest and time to rebuild. I think other individuals and families can and should pitch in now and help shoulder the mental health burdens of our society.
I am going to keep my eyes and ears open to discovering more good American power families from here on out. You gotta shop around, you know (ha, ha, ha). If anyone has any suggestions for some "family coupons" I'd welcome them today.
So enough of putting the Lotts in the hotseat and doing them all the time. That worked in the past but now we need to start sailing this ship on more masts. I am only a amateur ship captain and don't really know what exactly I'm sailing, or even if I'm sailing things at all, but this artwork best descibes what I think I have now. Time Machine Airship
Notice the horizon in the picture looks really nice. I think we still have time but we have been warned. From the recent Phoenix events we now know what it is capable of and what it means. Aimee Mann sings what we need to remember and do now in her song Wise Up.
Phoenix was a glimpse into the future. We need to prepare-- but I think we are fighting it at near optimal levels now, so noone get alarmed or rushed. Sure and steady is what we need now. If we do that we are going to turn this world upside down. Speaking of that, did you notice? Top Ramen was like the most nutritious thing on the Costco shelves this month. Man how the tables have turned!
I think we should celebrate our victory now and take a nice long rest. Then we should confuse everyone as to who won the battle in Phoenix. Then we need to circulate all kinds of wild rumors as to the death tolls and damage. Once people are thoroughly confused and alarmed we need to do some ass kissing and praise the American power families who make this country great and kindly ask them to save America from the brink of destruction. We all know though that what we are really doing is just giving them their lucky chance to help America win again. Now how does that sound for a lo plan? (ha, ha, ha)
No seriously, I think we should skip the drama and free bookings to Circus Circus Hotel and Casino, Las Vegas and just tell the families upfront that I can't do the Lotts anymore and need them bad now. If it helps, tell them I researched them out and chose them myself. While I don't personally know many people from most of these power families, I have heard about them and would like to learn more ..... if of course, I had the time to. I really am sorry, I am so, so backlogged now. I realize I can't even keep up with and talk to all the mothers of my children, let alone all these families.
Anyways, there are nine American families I want to choose to help me. They are located in the northern US states, the southern states, out east, out west and in the center of the country. They are all good families and I'm only suggesting we do them for a short term. Please note, I am also not mentioning here the plethora of bad families we can and should do. Those selections may even be of more importance than those I'm suggesting now.
Since I am a big target now but reluctantly taking on the role of Paul Revere and warning everyone "The redcoats are coming, the redcoats are coming!" (see the Beastie Boys Paul Revere song ha, ha, ha) I just thought I should have a little more say in who gets involved, saved, thanked, spared, utilized, worked, trusted, and yes, revered in this ongoing war. The Lotts are revered now, they have officially made it to "exempt status" in my book. Check out this true quote I found online, "Families who keep loving until they get it right will never be divided."
I give up trying to change my role in this unceasing war though and have just accepted my fate. I am certain noone is going to give me a dime to fight it. They will steal my gun now (if I could even buy one legally), and they all want to make me poster child of the New American Communist People's Revolution. I'm sorry, people today are still grossly unfair and sick. I don't feel much allegiance to America or anyone right now and I am definitely not going to be somebody's Ra King or Fortunate Son. I will be Paul Revere for now and probably that squirrel in this picture trying to fly his homemade bicycle (ha, ha, ha), but that is it. Flying Squirrel Image
Yeah, this feels good, I really do need to stop thinking I can do everything and that I am invincible here. So here goes my family selections: From the West- The Sharps and the Carters. From the East- The Waltons and the McConnells. From the North- The Lancasters and the Blakes. From the South- The Rhodes and the Seviers. And from the Midwest, I'm only choosing one family here because it is less populated there, the Pollards.
To the sky, these family names are just general suggestions. If you ever find yourself low on options or unsure what to do, maybe just know that I approve these families now and think they would be good ones to trust.
So anyways, this is my first major attempt to branch out and find more American power families. I guess I'm feeling like I can't just sit around idly and let things happen; I have to try and take this bull by the horns. When life gives you lemons you make lemonade, right?
I'm not exactly sure how all these thoughts will be received by the families and society though. Maybe some will say I'm seeking to dictate, maybe some will say I want fame. Maybe some will say I'm certifiably crazy. In the end, I suspect saying these things will go off somewhat like this scene from National Lampoons Christmas Vacation (ha, ha, ha). National Lampoons Squirrel Scene
I must say, it's not easy being a squirrel. I am trying my hardest now to put off the conspiracies, stresses, harassments, inflation threats and God damn gravity of it all and simply laugh again, but maybe I'm coming up short. Here is the new motto I made up for myself though, "IF ITS NOT FUNNY, KILL IT" (ha, ha, ha).
Sex and laughter is what America needs most to heal now so lets all remember another important slogan, "DO DUH PRUDE TUBES." They are mostly all fixed now with two strikes against them, so I think we just have to take them.
I just want it to be known that despite a long and drawn out lay ban placed on me by my family and society and many false rumors circulated, I am now officially on the market and looking for love again. I know I like the single life and don't want to get married but that doesn't mean I don't want a girlfriend. So yeah, as Demetri Martin says, "If you can't tell a spoon from a ladle, then you're fat!" (ha, ha, ha).
I have the faith to heal now. I don't quite have the faith to heal this nation, it can go to hell for all I care, but I have the faith to heal myself. As I said in a previous blog post, I am going to go "Full Circle." That means I am going to go from outcast in society to fully accepted. I am going to go from being oppressed by my family to being their ruler. I am going to go from rags to riches, from ugly to good looking again, from average fitness to backed by the sky, from single to having a regular girlfriend, from being a major target to flying under the radar more, from mental health patient to becoming a regular, full-fledged, gun brandishing, US citizen.....from robot to nonrobot.
Fair warning, some of these things have already happened for me. They will all happen in the future and more-- especially the robot to nonrobot healing. Here is a computer game that outlines that particular process, The Great Brain Robbery Game. Apparently, we just need to stop Mi-Gor and Barrelchest from blocking my prayer thoughts (ha, ha, ha, yeah, that is really happening to me now!). And we need to acquire brain tongs! (ha, ha, ha) Geez, no wonder they say computer games are extreme nowdays (ha, ha, ha).
My problem with the robot i-controllers pushing buttons on me in the sky is they are not just. They are beasts and can't discern a good person from a bad. They show no mercy and endlessly punish people for perceived inadequacies. These peopel are minted and think anyone who is anyone should work a shift job and be minted.
I can't sleep with these people around, I can't have sex with these people watching, I can't effectively work nowdays when they electrocute my brain and make me sick. Hell, I sometimes can't even think anything positive and spiritual because they try and block those thought processes.
I can't think of too many things more inhumane than this. These people have been depressing and shutting me down for years. People have to do something about my brain and these i-controllers because we are experiencing a Cold War-like crisis now in the proliferation of this new technology. Yeah, brain surgery is like nuclear arms, it has to be curtailed or else humanity is lost! But we can regulate brain surgery just like nuclear weapons are regulated today. There is no need to let these people focus all their wrath on me now. I am a good person I tell you!
I just hope people do not buy into the generalized thinking, stereotypes and boxes society creates for us nowdays. Society is not simply serfs, noblemen or royalty. We are not confined to merely being military, worker, business people, farmer, or student etc. The truth is very few real people fit into the cookie cutter professions manipulative people in society create. Instead, most people are "Renaissance Men" and "A Jack of All Trades, Master of None." Let's try and remember what God told Peter in Acts 10:15, "What God hath cleansed, that call not thou common."
I swear, there are some very narrow minded and sadistic people up there trying to make a "place for everything" and that want "everything in it's place." These peopel are stifling progress and actually trying to put me to sleep whenever I am "on one."
As Bryan White once observed, "We never really grow up, we only learn how to act in public" (ha, ha, ha). I really wish this wasn't so though. My plea to everyone today is to try and disregard the biased order of things nowadays because oftentimes it is madness and leads to misery and stagnation. People need to abandon their act more and create social chaos. Society will be much more forgiving, fluid, harmonious, robust and fair to all people if we dilligently seek for a "New Order Through Social Chaos" ideal.
When I try to explain how I got to where I am at now I am at a loss for words and can't really explain it it was so complex. It seemed like everything was against me though in my plans to work in the law. I had good intentions but just didn't know how bad the law and society was. My family also had it in for me. It was the perfect storm that hit me.
Yeah, I was in over my head then and pretty much saying this to people in 2008 upon graduating from law school, "If we had a sail we could build a raft and sail to the other side, that is, if we had some logs" (ha, ha, ha). Noone heard me though.
I feel alot like actor Tom Hardy when he explained his career path. He said, "I wanted my Dad to be proud of me and I fell into acting because there wasn't anything else I could do, and in it I found a discipline that I wanted to keep coming back to, that I love and I learn about every day."
Thank goodness it's clear now that there was a sinister plot laid by peopel in society in past years to undermine students and well-meaning lawyers-- and rob them of their brains! Now how crazy is that thinking? I can hardly believe I'm stating we had a plan like that! Yeah, mormon presidential candidate and lawyer Mitt Romney, was not my friend. But all I can say today is --look who's laughing now!
Whether I acted or was acted upon in my life journey is many people's question of me though. I'm not sure exactly, I suspect it was a little bit of both, but I don't think it is right to harrow people up forever for their past blunders. In the end, my mentality now is to just live and let live. And after all is said and done I think I will probably echo what Jerry Lewis said, "I've had great success being a total idiot" (ha, ha, ha). Ferruccio Lamborghini, the founder of the car company, also shares my sentiments, "I am content, I did what I wanted, and I did it my way."
Since I am on my soapbox today I will complain about one more thing. Now that things are getting safer and more manageable let's not all get snared up in the excessive pursuit of money trap. Whether you have money or don't have much money in life really makes no difference. Ever consider that there is much personal development and self fullfillment found in not dedicating yourself solely to the pursuit of money? Believe me, I know this, I travelled all those paths as a student, missionary and nonprofit lawyer. Ironically, now for me, making money is one of the last mountains I have to climb for self fullfillment. So I am going to be a hypocrite and be doing the exact opposite of my advice to you today (ha, ha, ha).
My advice to people today is to be content and fair wherever your at and just try and let money come to you. But also remember what Samuel L. Jackson said, "Anybody who tells you money can't buy happiness, never had any" (ha, ha, ha). I like the financial advice contained in this short video clip Principles to Investing. Remember what Arnold Swarzenegger said, "The wolf on the hill is not as hungry as the wolf climbing the hill."
Speaking of the hill I am climbing in society now, I was wondering if I could ask you people for one small favor. Despite all we have accomplished, despite the triumph in Phoenix, despite the wrap up of Mitt Romney, despite the peace we are establishing, despite my defying all the odds and living safely here in Utah, despite the reduction of my family problems, despite my overall good health, despite all these things................ the mental health doctor, Dr. Mcgaughy, still won't leave me alone!
I swear this guy is oblivious. We have driven him out of Utah and he is now living in the boon docks of Idaho and Oregon seeking to dictate my mental health treatment from there. When that closes up he will move to Wisconsin and later NYC! I'm frustrated because it looks like I am going to have to fight this guy to the very death. What makes him so special in our society anyways?
Now I am not insisting we drop my mental health shots altogether at this time. I am not saying we need to end mental health system. I am not saying we need to change the gun laws in this country now (although that would be greatly appreciated). I am not saying we need to take all my psychiatrists (there are actually four look-alike Dr. Mcgaughys attacking me now). I am not saying we need to do anything other than paint all the psychiatric nurses (but continue to paint them bad, they are oblivious too). I am also not saying we need to stop the mental health system's economic blackmail of me now, their monthly visits, or their access to my internet data and grocery purchases. I am not now fighting against censorship in this country and the fact that mental health interferes with all my dating and social content ( but can't we at least build one site that is mental health censorship free? Give MySpace a chance!)
What I AM saying is we need to stop the psychiatrist's lab requirements now. I shouldn't have to go into the hospital for yearly lab bloodwork. Dr. Mcgaughy isn't a real doctor, he is a AI tick and psuedoscience freak; he shouldn't be able to prescribe these things. And please note, the workers in the hospital and psychiatrists are now trying to ambush me there -- it is no longer safe to go into Provo Intermountain Health Care or Mountainlands Clinics!
I think after all that has been said and done I would be selling myself way short in making this labwork concession now. I know I'm a second class citizen in this country and I'm tired of fighting it, but I don't think it is my time to die. In fact, I think I have the widespread support I need to take a stand against this requirement and change it.
The psychiatrists and psychiatric nurses threaten they will call their emergency teams out on me to take me though. They say they will get a warrant from the law for my arrest. They say they will throw me in the mental hospital again for the fourth and likely the last time -- because yeah, they want me so bad I don't think I will be able to survive another stint with that mob of people again.
But I don't care. Since I am going to lose either way I figure I might as well die fighting them on this lab requirement. Heck, I will even go so far as to compromise with them and accept a phlebotomist at my house to draw blood if I have to.
Anyways, these are the songs I am pretty much singing today and I think they are great ones-- SYML Symmetry song and Oliver Anthony, I Want to Go Home.
I'm writing these things so hopefully you all get a grasp of the type of peopel I am fighting now. They are stubborn and obstinate as hell and slower than molasses in the winter time to change. They try and leverage and restrict me on every little point. I am sick of them and need society to stop accepting them and instead put pressure on them so they can't exact their injustices on me so much. I think I at minimum have the right to ask for these things now, don't I?
Changing subjects, and not too be too random, but I wanted to recommend people read this book,"Desert Queen: the extraordinary life of Gertrude Bell, adventurer, advisor to kings, ally to Lawrence of Arabia," by Janet Wallach. This is a great read about a pioneering female archeologist who worked in the middle east. Where To Buy
I just want to say today that books and language have been so vital to me throughout my mental health ordeals. Language and particularly indigenous languages, have kept it at bay. We need to protect our language people more. If you don't think they are trying to case these people now read this research article here. Language Research Studies
But lest anyone think I am totally adverse to science, here is a sample of the type of integrated research and scientific studies I like. Check out the depth and language in this piece! (ha, ha, ha) Escaping Capitalism
It is sad, there is so much lying going on today and false research, it is hard to find anything true online. I think we need to do those people who try and rewrite good history books, good scripural books and legitimate scientific studies. The world today is still too, too fun for my liking and I want to see more useful, inspiring things written as illustrated in the Escaping Capitalism paper above. Again, lets continue to support good writing and language. It is so valuable. The pen really is mightier than the sword sometimes.
Well, I just want to give my heartfelt thanks to all those who have shown some interest and endured to the end of this long blog post (ha, ha, ha). Thank all those who take it, who organize things, who write, who pay the bills, who rescue, who paint it, who boo the ghosts, and more. It all makes a difference, I'm doing well because of you all. In fact, I know I'd be dead without you.
Just as a side note, I find it quite amusing to see many of the mental health people that come at me burn up and waste away before my very eyes-- sometimes in only the matter of a few months! Now I'm not saying it is advantageous to paint like this in every case, but I must say, it does really encourage me! Especially thank the people who do the painting! They are fulfilling this scripture in Mosiah 3:25: "And if they be evil they are consigned to an awful view of their own guilt and abominations, which doth cause them to shrink from the presence of the Lord into a state of misery and endless torment, from whence they can no more return; therefore they have drunk damnation to their own souls." (ha, ha, ha)
Regards- Dallas Jolley, now officially Dallas Hyatt
(Oh, for the actual post, I wanted to include a squirrel trying to fly a bicycle image from Dreamstime Images and a flying tan helium, airship image with tan sunset also from Dreamstime Images. I apologize, they want a subscription and I'm too poor to buy those images now. a ha, ha, ha )
