Windmills and Bird Graveyards

I may have been feeling a little bit happy and euphoric in my previous "Feeling Blessed" post. The reason being is, I was disregarding some really dirty details I am up against now.  I got enemies reading this blog. I got enemies in all sectors of society. Even the sky is not a safe place for me. 

Donald Trump spoke about windmills and bird graveyards. If you haven't read what he was saying you should look it up. I don't like to think of myself as a graver but in some sick ways I am. I always have sickos around me spying on what I'm doing. I always have predators round about thinking they can capitalize on things I do or attract. My family and the mental health system fervently spy on everything I do. It is disgusting. I don't even want to post on here when I think about it, but I also can't let them silence me. I just want people, girls especially, to be aware of the problem I have around me and to take precautions. 

So anyways, I am sometimes mad and sickened by what is happening in the world today. There doesn't seem to be a lot of law for mental health issues, cyber bullying, intellectual property rights, fraudulent student lending practices, right to work initiatives and workplace dangers, or even sexual abuse. A lot is happening up there in the sky today, and I will say my fears could be a little over-inflated and unfounded, but I just want my friends to be aware of the trades online and to be cautious and safe. I don't talk to anyone on Facebook anymore. I don't trust that site and don't want any of my friends to be needlessly injured at my expense.  

Mental Institutions

"Two fish in a tank. One says " How do you drive this thing?"                   

People ask me, "So you were in the mental hospital for a year and a half, what was that like?"  Well, I really don't know how to answer that question. If I complain people will think I deserved it, if I keep quiet about it they will think that I was beaten into submission. I don't know how to explain the experience except to throw out some jokes, quotes, movies and music from people who capture it better in words than myself. As you may guess, I have a general aversion for the mental health system so don't be alarmed, but hey, what do I know, I'm officially crazy now. 

A patient with a mental disorder thinking that he is George Washington meets with his psychologist. During his visit he says, " Today I will cross the Delaware and destroy the redcoats." After the meeting the psychologist gets on the telephone and says, " Hello this is Benedict Arnold, I got the plans."

My therapist says I have a preoccupation with vengeance. We'll see about that.   -Stewart Francis

Roses are red, violets are blue. I'm schitzophrenic and so am I. -Oscar Levant

Pavlov's dog to his ladydog friend, "See that!  Every time I salivate Pavlov smiles and scribbles something in his book."

Did you hear about the guy who had his whole left side cut off? He's all right now. 

Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure you're not surrounded by assholes.

Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing. -Redd Foxx

And the light shineth in darkness and the darkness comprehendeth it not. -Doctrine and Covenants

One out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced. Think of your closest friends, if they seem okay then your the one.

Of all things that I've lost, I miss my mind the most.- Mark Twain

All great and beautiful work has come of first gazing without shrinking into the darkness. - John Ruskin

Germaphobes...... there's a pill for that. 

Toad the Wet Sprocket "Crazy Life" song about the Pine Ridge Indian Massacre and the incarceration of Leonard Peltier 

Dwight Yoakham "1000 Miles from Nowhere" song

Marcy's Playground "Sex and Candy" song

"Master of Disaster" song by John Hiatt

Dallas Buyers Club movie and Alice in Wonderland movie ( I haven't watched them yet but they came out when I was in the hospital. So if you want to possibly have a movie made about you go to the mental hospital, Ugh.) Oh, "Dallas in Wonderland" was a nickname I got growing up along with the nickname "Salad"- that's Dallas spelled backward. 

Red Hot Chili Peppers "Otherside" song

Cracker "Low" song

The 2013, "Pompeii" song by Bastille

The Matrix movies

Men in Black movie

The Pursuit of Happiness movie

Rambo First Blood movie

What About Bob movie

Braveheart movie

Good Will Hunting movie

Groundhog Day movie

I told my psychiatrist that everyone hates me. He said I was being ridiculous- everyone hasn't met me yet. -Rodney Dangerfield

Joe has been seeing a psychoanalyst for four years for treatment of the fear that he had monsters under his bed. It had been years since he had gotten a good night's sleep. Furthermore, his progress was very poor, and he knew it. So, one day he stops seeing the psychoanalyst and decides to try something different.

A few weeks later, Joe's former psychoanalyst meets his old client in the supermarket, and is surprised to find him looking well-rested, energetic, and cheerful. "Doc!" Joe says, "It's amazing! I'm cured!"
"That's great news!" the psychoanalyst says. "you seem to be doing much better. How?"
"I went to see another doctor," Joe says enthusiastically, "and he cured me in just ONE session!"
"One?!" the psychoanalyst asks incredulously.
"Yeah," continues Joe, "my new doctor is a behaviorist."
"A behaviorist?" the psychoanalyst asks. "How did he cure you in one session?"
"Oh, easy," says Joe. "He told me to cut the legs off of my bed."

Women

A great mind must be androgynous. -- Samuel Taylor Coleridge

I hope I don't sound like a broken record player when I say things are going well and that I'm thankful, but I will say it one more time.  I'm feeling especially grateful for women today. They have done so much for me and are so amazing. Even the bad ones are good it seems.  

It angers me when women are demeaned or abused in any way by men today. Like I said, I believe even the bad women would be good if they had some support from men. What some women deal with is heartbreaking to me. 

In the mental health system there are some really nasty dikes. I have been burned by some of them but I'm not going to let it sour my opinion of women generally.  I know I have kept women waiting with regard to marriage but for some reason, they don't seem to hold that against me much. It is amazing because somehow they know I am with them or want to be with them and that is all they have needed to know. 

Anyway, women are just a fascination and perpetual enigma to me. They seem naturally disadvantaged, and yet they thrive.  What they accomplish is phenomenal. 

If you are a bro guy and don't buy into the whole women rule the world theory I pity you and strongly suggest you get with the program. You are a lost cause without a woman's counsel. You gotta earn her affection to get her counsel though. You can't drag her into your misery.

Well, that's all I'll say about women. I don't care if some guys think I am a softy for saying these things. Those guys are living in the past-- the future is women-backed and women-governed, regardless if there is a woman in Washington D.C. or not. 

Many guys have no clue just how strong, prepared, and flat-out vicious women are today. Some men are like polar ice-bath swimmers, running around in the arctic with nothing but flip flops, a speedo and a bathrobe on. Those proud, ignorant, reckless, idiots can freeze their balls off and/or die of hypothermia for all I care. The time is now for men to decide if they are going to get with the program or not.