My Failure

 
" .....it is made bright, it is wrapped up for the slaughter."                 -- (Ezekiel 21:15)

Great news! The mother of my five-year-old son and her boyfriend are now paying an awful price for their hideous crimes.  Also, many of my son's abusers are now dead. My son is with good people now and safe, thank you, thank you, thank you!

I am now vowing more than ever to never again let something bad like this happen to my son or anyone else for that matter. I would rather die, I feel so terrible. I could lie to myself and say it's not my fault and that I wasn't aware that I had a blackmail son until only a few weeks ago, but that would do me no good. I had the spirit or at least I thought I did, and it can tell us all things. 

When I first had the impression about my son two years ago, I wrote about him in my blog. The whole thing was kind of fuzzy in my mind though and I should have inquired about him more and seen the whole picture then. Instead, I wrongly assumed all of the mothers of my children were good, the kids were all safe with them, and it was just my family that was attacking my son (which they were). But little did I know, my son had Cruella Deville for a mother and was being treated very inhumanely by her. If only I had been in tune earlier he would have been safe! 

I also trusted the sky too much to help me with this but shouldn't have. This whole ordeal may show the failure and inadequacy of our sky and how sometimes they mishandle these situations. They were in the know about my son long beforehand and could have at least told me about him. Instead, they did nothing but pay the mother blackmail money. My son was in a terrible situation and something bad was bound to happen to him sometime. I have to complain because someone up there really wants to keep me down, uninformed, rob me, and kill all my seed. Instead of helping my son, people in the sky instead took kickbacks from the blackmail money. Yeah, this was just another unfortunate situation for them that they were profiting from immensely (better watch out because I know about you now).   

This whole situation has kind of been a revelation into my own personal history as well. When I realized I had a blackmail child it occurred to me that the reason I was always treated like a red-headed stepchild in my family growing up, was because I too was a blackmail child. ( i.e. my father was not my biological father and my mother had me to blackmail my real father for money) I then had a dream where my real biological father spoke to me and told me about himself. I don't want to say anything else about this person right now, but suffice it to say, I am certain I am not a Jolley. 

I also want to thank the people who helped rescue my daughter two years ago when I wrote in my blog. She too was a blackmail child. I am especially grateful for the family that adopted her and is caring for her now. I will let them name my daughter, I think they care deeply about her. 

Well, I am ecstatic for such a quick and happy resolution to all this. God has really been humbling and stretching me lately and I am trying much harder now to look and inquire of the Lord more. This really feels like the low point of my existence. I guess let this be a negative lesson for all of us. Watch your kids like hawks.  Know that the spirit will teach us of secrets and hidden things and bring all the dark and nefarious works of darkness to light. WE CAN LOOK BEFORE IT and the spirit will tell us all things what we should do. Everything I have said today I know by the spirit and that's all.