Names

"I do not care how learned a man may be, or how extensively he may have traveled. I do not care what his talent, intellect or genius may be, at what college he may have studied, how comprehensive his views or what his judgment may be on other matters, he cannot understand certain things without the Spirit of God....."  -- Heber J. Grant

Been thinking about Kurt Cobain alot lately. His music was so good it is tragic how he died. Now, I am not getting cold feet or anything, but sometimes I think that like Kurt Cobain, the name I have frames me. It is sadistic people in the sky, my family, the mental health system and other places that want to make me a public spectacle and fall guy. 

I'm sorry, I am not going to go that route and get lifted up on the cross just yet. I am thinking I want to change my name now to Aran Ziplman. That is an even less adversarial name, I know. Am I taming down a bit? I don't know, things have just gotten a little too predictive and psychological for me lately. I'm getting smarter and smarter all the time and feel like I could get pigeonholed again. 

I have made a real effort not to get stuck in the rat race and to keep my time open since going to the mental hospital. I suffered from tunnel vision before when I was studying non-stop and working in the law. All I could think about was money and those things. Now I am seeing the big picture and protecting myself from the blindside. I am psychologically stronger now.

So anyway, thanks again to all the people who have helped me and shown me some grace. I needed time to catch up and probably still do, but I must say I am in a lot better situation than I was in ten years ago. I look back now on that time now and realize I was in a world of trouble. Even today I am finding some of the cars that were after me then. God has cut off the arms of all my enemies and today I am almost free as a bird. I probably don't deserve this second chance at life but I am going to make the best of it. 

Remember the prophets are in Jerusalem now. I hope you all are well. God bless.